This week I am resting in this truth. He knows me, He knows the plans He has for me. There are times in my life I may never understand what those plans mean. But I will trust in Him. He has plans to prosper me, never to harm me. I have hope, a future.
What should have been a pregnancy update, is now a testament to His plans in my life. This has been a very rough week, emotionally. After several days of off and on bleeding, it was confirmed during an ultrasound on Friday what we feared. We lost our baby. Our precious little life was no longer thriving.
Baby Woodling is dancing the streets of Heaven and I CAN find joy in that, no matter what I feel.
There are moments I feel incredible peace and moments I break down and cry, questioning why? If there's any true test of faith, it's losing a child. Whether before or after birth, no one ever expects to lose this precious little life.
For now, I pray for healing. Healing for my soul, my heart. Healing for my body. Healing for my kids' hearts with what they understand. If I'm saddest for anyone, it's them.
I can be thankful for support and love from friends and family, for my amazing husband who is always by my side. I'm incredibly thankful for the promise The Lord has for us. Death has lost it's sting. I will rest in His promise.
I hope you can rest in that promise too.
2 comments:
So sorry, Ashley! Glad that you have such an awesome faith to see you through!
Ashley, I'm Friend of Your Mothers. . . ! I want to agree with you in Prayer. Prayer for Peace, Healing, Strength, and Eventually Understanding. Your are on the Right Path, God has Plans that are beyond our understanding, All he asks is that we stay faithful, and Obedient. . . you Will BE Rewarded ...!!
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